The day after is the same

Christmas was yesterday and I still feel lazy today because there is stuff I want to do and need to do but I feel as though I have no energy or any desire to do it.

So my mom called yesterday to wish a merry christmas to us all. It was the first time that I talked to her ever since I got married in september. I am hoping that she will be here for the birth of my daughter. Im hoping and then im not because I dont know if she will show up at all.
What annoys me is when people tell me that I shouldnt expect anything from her at all because she has hurt me in the past,so why should she come. I mean come on she is my mom I want to at least try,dont shoot down my ideas or my happiness of wanting too.

It rained a lot yesterday and the wind blew about 34 or more miles per hour. So our nicely decorated yard with stuff sticking into the ground like the glow butterfly on a stick,is now laying on the ground probally bent and broken.But at least to day is sunny so we dont have to worry about bundling ourselves up in hot clothes and we can just wear something comfortable. More like me wearing something comfortable,nothing ever fit me lately,until I got maternity clothes yesteday for christmas,so I will wear them today and test them out but I am sure they will be ok,I needed some clothes for my growing belly

We are going to town to day to go to the library and take jeffreys books back and I need to also take some stuff back too.

Well I have to go and get dressed now and do my hair hahah,just got out of the shower and if I dont do anything with it,it will turn into a fuzzy mop!

Merry Christmas Eve...!

So today is the day that people would call and consider Christmas Even,The day before Christmas.

We have got all our shopping done and we finished it today. Grandma always tells us each year,what we didnt get for christmas we could get afterwards.

There is a lot of things that I am thankful for this year

I am thankful for my Husband Sean.
Honey if you get a chance to read this, Know that I love you, and I am glad to have you by my side for the rest of my life. I dont know what I would do with out you. I will always love and cherish you, I am thankful for you and all you have done for me and what you will do for me in the future. You are a kind and gentle person and I am grateful to have known you as a friend,boyfriend,fiance and now my Husband. I am so glad to have you in my life. Know that I love you and our Daughter Emma,Even though she isnt here yet loves you too . I wish you could be here with me right now, I hope you will be safe while you are away from me at the moment.
We wish you a Merry Christmas and Grandma Sends her love your way . Know that you are surrounded by your family and friends who love and care for you.
Love Your Wife Crista.

I am grateful to have my Grandparents in my life,they have been with me ever since I was born and I am glad to live with them right now,they have taken care of My sister and I for many years and I love them very much.

I love my sister Jessica,Even thought we may fight and say cruel words to each other,I hope she knows that I love her and that I am always here for her.

So my little cousin keeps getting into trouble and we keep telling him that if he isn't good santa wont come at all, after we told him that he started listening to us. But that doesn't mean he wont always stay good,I give it after tommorow.

I have wanted to start trying to at least blog once a day ,every day. I have things to write,it is just how to get the words out of my head,and let me hands on the keyboard do the talking.
I know it isnt good to hold your anger frustrations and sadness inside,so im not going to try to do that anymore and if blogging can help me relieve my mind then I will. Because it seems to be a online journal,that I can share with my friends and they can know how I am feeling and they can give me some good advice.

I talked to sean today,he is doing good. He is going to his dads for christmas,who is my father in law.He left today from Fort Leonord Wood where he has been at to go to the airport and stay at one of their rooms for the night,so he can fly out to pennsylvania in the morning. He will be there from tommorow until January 2nd,and then he goes back to have more dental work done before he can fly out of the states. I hope that they dont make him wait to long to go over to korea,because I want and am hoping he will be here for the birth of our daugher Emma. But he has already been told that is had been confirmed that he will fly over. Maybe it he stays for a while at Fort Leonord Wood,he wont have go over there at all right now. I dont know,we will see.
It is great to hear his voice on the phone and text him when we get the chance. .He wishes he could be here for me and at home for christmas,instead of being so far away and it is making him sad. He could have been here,but he got a smallpox shot and that hindered him until january to see me because im pregnant ,But I know things will get better,it is good that he is getting to see his dad for christmas,instead of being stuck in som barracks.

We went to vegas today and that was a long drive down there and back. What I hate the most is when we have to go to the Veterans Affairs Mental Health Clinice,we go their because my grandpa needs to see a doctor,and that place creeps me out. The way that the other patients look at you. No I am not racist or prejudice,but I wish they would leave me ALONE!

I was really hungry by the time we had gotten done with the clinic stuff. We had dinner at olive garden and I think that was the most I have ever eaten their in all the times I have eaten at a olive garden,but it was good.

I think I am going to go to bed for the night, Im tired,my back and my sides hurt . Haha the joys of being pregnant.

Missing...

I keep counting down the days until I can see sean again. I remember the longest I have gone without seeing sean was last year and that was two months or 87 days,so almost two months and a half.
Why does it seem so hard for me to deal with him being gone right now, I mean things are a little different and yes we are married but it seems harder then it was last time. Maybe because the last time he left, we werent married and I wasnt pregnant.
I can deal with him being gone,I know that I have to be strong about it and I know he will come back to see me,but I dont want to have to wait till April to see him again.

There are Wives or even Husbands that go a year with out seeing their spouses that are in the military,and my granmda was one of the,because my grandpa was in the air force and always gone.

But I seem to be a chicken when it comes to being away from people or my Husband.

Jabberwocky

Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son! The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun The frumious Bandersnatch!"
He took his vorpal sword in hand: Long time the manxome foe he sought --So rested he by the Tumtum tree, And stood awhile in thought.
And, as in uffish thought he stood, The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,Came whiffling through the tulgey wood, And burbled as it came!
One, two! One, two! And through and through The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!He left it dead, and with its head He went galumphing back.
"And, has thou slain the Jabberwock? Come to my arms, my beamish boy!O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!' He chortled in his joy.
`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe.

*~Christmas is here~*

Ok so lately I have not been able to figure out what to write on my blog, I think of things that I do want to write,then never get around to doing it.Maybe it was because I was wallowing in my sadness that I had from missing my Husband,I do miss him and wish he was here for the holidays,but I will get to see him soon and most of the deep sadness has passed.
So the other day we put up our christmas tree which took almost 2 hours to do because of many reasons.
1- It is one of those fake trees were you have to take it down and put it up limb by limb
2- You have to put all the lights on it
3- You have to put everyone ornament that is in this house on it.
4- This isnt really a reason,but I thought I would add it for keeps. I have never had a real tree before,dont know if I want one or not,but it is better then cleaning up pine needles all the time.


It was fun putting it up,My sister and I put it up every year toghther and then take it down.

It looks pretty sitting in our front room all lit up, I like the colors of the lights and the way they look at night.

I wish every year that christmas wouldnt be over,but then again I look forward to it the next year to come.

"Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all"
Charm is Deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she had earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Proverbs. 31: 29-31, NIV

Sad and Lonely

I miss my Husband. He is going over seas and I miss him because it feels so quiet and boring without him here. The bed feels empty at night because I can't roll over to him next to me, or being able to put my arm around him right now. Its hard to sleep because im used to him here. I know it will only be for a month and a half before I see him,but im not used to him being away for a while.Before we got married he was away longer to go to AIT,but it feels different now. I think that every army wife feels that way when her husband is gone,but they get used to it. I know I will get used to it.Just to hear his voice on the phone makes me day when he calls me. It will get better,I will feel better, just give it a few days and I will.

Its time for grace

If you have ever read the books that have been written by New York Best Selling Author Ricahrd Paul Evans,You now know that he has realeased his new book called "Grace".

Someone would call them trashy christmas romance novels,but in all,I can describe them as classy and opiniated and just a good story that anyone would want to read. They are in a way somewhat sad, depending on the story type and what it is about. But I am so excited to read his new book. I asked for it for christmas and I am hoping I get it.
Here is what his new book is about.

"Grace is the story of a young runaway girl and the boy who hides her from a world too large for him to comprehend. It is also about two brothers and the trust that binds them together through difficult times. Most of all, Grace is a story of a young couple learning to love"

2008 Realizations..!

2008 stupid realizations.Ahem, don't read if you think you will be wasting previous minutes in your life.
1) Taco Bell is more American than Burger King
2) Asking the computer to work faster will not work, in fact it will go slower.
3) I'd rather not know what hotdogs come from, in fear the name says it all.
4) Trying to type a letter with your nose is fun; doing it with your homework is stupid.
5) High Fives are like crack to little kids
6) I think Nick Jr. is just as entertaining as MTV.
7) The girls who work at Hollister are paid to look at you like your SMEXY.
8) SMEXY is not a word, so you need to stop using it.
9) If you hold your hand out in front of you walking down a hallway, 40% of the people you pass will high five you.
10) When someone says "I like the Moldy Peaches." They're really saying, "I only like the song from Juno."
11) When I put on flip-flops, I'm making a statement, I'm saying.. "I hope I don't get chased today."
12) Nematoads are people too. (Thank you, SpongeBob.)
13) Don't try to bite you ear, it will become addicting. ( People might mistaken you for a person with Tiretts)
14) Same thing with licking a battery.
15) There is such a thing as "Beatles overload" so listen sparingly. (really, "A Day in the Life" was stuck in my head for 4 hours.)
16) Yelling "FOOD FIGHT!! " in a food court will not trigger a food fight; only odd looks and mall security. (Do not attempt this ha ha )
17) If you take a nap outside everyday, eventually something not cool will bite you.
18) If a robot, does the Robot, it's called the paradox.
19) There is more in Sprite than Lemon and Lime.
20) Duck Taping bottle rockets to roller blades will not make rocket skates.
21) It Won't make a rocket sled either. (Nice try Ty)
22) The fastest way to get in a fight is walk into Hot Topic, walk up to the shirt wall, point to a random shirt and say, "That band sucks %^*$#@#$$@!." really loud.
23) Aids + Aids= Aids (Not Super Aids.)
24) It's possible to wait until 30 minutes until a final exam to study, and still make a 103 on it.
25) You can't put "Mad Halo3 SKILLZ!" on a resume for Gamestop.
26) Most girls are crazy, just learn to accept this.
27) Gum can stick to anything.
28) The new Dew flavors are a gift from the heavens, and I don't deserve their awesomeness.
29) I will never be hot; just cute.
30) Myspace is just an outlet for people to type out what they're really like, read it, realize they hate who they are, and reinvent themselves over and over agian.
31) Leaving a comment without leaving Kudos is like saying "Yeah, I read it.. It sucks.. Bye"
32) It's hard to compete with pathetic.
33) People love to steal my blog ideas.
34) "Nice butt" Is not a compliment.
35) Drinking hot chocolate quick will not reduce the amount of pain on your tounge.
36) Breaking guitar durring a gig= is extremly cool.... Breaking Guitar Hero Controler durring game= Is as stupid as stupid gets.
37) There are more ways to get toast out of a toaster than fishing it out with a fork.
38) Skattering change all over the floor so you can find it is considered littering in the eyes of your parents.
39) Saying "Lol" verbally should be quickly followed by, "I was just reading a text outloud, oops".
40) Unlike a real Guitar, with guitar hero controler, breaking it during a preformance will not activate star power.
41) Putting your Itunes on shuffle will only make you listen to the songs you regret downloading over and over again.
42) Climbing on your roof will not get you a better signal, just two really pissed off parents with a ladder.
43) A Four Cheese Hot Pocket is not Italian food.
44) Adding a whole package of cream cheese will not make mac n cheese taste cheesier.

And thank you Jessica

The Portrait of Dorian Gray

I really like this quote from the beggining of the book.

The artist is a creator of beautiful things
The reveal are and conceal the artist is art's aim
The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beauitiful things
The highest,as the lowest,form or criticism is a mode of autobiography
Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt with being charming.
This is a fault
Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated.
For these there is hope
They are the elect to whome beautiful things mean only beauty
There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral bookBooks are well written,or badly written.That is all
The nineteenth-century dislike of realism is the rage of Caliban seeing his own face in a glass
The moral life of man forms part of the subject-matter of the artist,but the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium.
No artist desires to prove anything.
Even things that are true beyond can be proved
No artist has ethical sympathies.
An ethical Sympathy in an artist is an unpardonable mannerism of style.
No arist is every morbid.
The artist can exspress anything using everything
Thought and language are to the artist instruments of an artVice and virtue are to the artist material for an art
From the point of view of form,the type of all the arts is the art of musician.
From the point of view of feeling,the actor's craft is the type.
All art is at once surface and symbol
Those who go beneath the surface do so at there own peril
Those who read the symbol do so at there own perilIt is the spectator,and not the life,that are really mirrors
Diversity of opinions about a work of art shows that the work is new,complex,and vital
When critics disagree the artist is in accord with himself
We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admirer it.
The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensly.

-''Oscar Wilde''

This is how I really feel at the moment and any other way to express how I feel would be totally catastrophic.

This house it to crowded to have 7 people live in it. No one picks up after themselves that much right now. So I feel that is relies on me to clean it.Well I cant. Being pregnant drains you and your energy. There is to much to do around here and so little time and patience to do it. Dishes, laundry,mopping sweeping and vacuming and keeping a room and a kitchen clean is hard.
I wish I had my own house,so I woulnt feel so sufficated.